The Stage

Acting in front of a camera is much easier than acting in front of a live audience. There is a huge energy that you get from a crowd. To hear the laughter of a person after your line is interesting because you can feed of the laughter and then pretty soon you have a crowd of Five hundred people laughing and you get that rush. What is so hard about the stage is that you have to allow your audience to receive every emotion. The hardest parts of having to act on stage is crumbling under pressure. I believe that the best shows have audiences that will respect the performers. Once a person truly understands what goes into performing they should give the performance the respect that it deserves. 

There are times when people are performing and the audience is completely dead and it was hopeless. The performers were amazing in my opinion. Even if they are aren't the best you clap and cheer to support. What is my pet peeve are people who like to heckle. I feel that it not only effects the performers but it distracts the audience. To conclude, the next time you go to a performance no matter what be respectful and imagine if you were on stage you would want the audience to be mature and active.

The Relationship Scene

I really enjoyed the process the relationship scene. Sophia is an excellent partner devoted to her work. We made sure to stay very focused during the process of creating this piece. The way that we created the script was we both had to meditate on the what we would really say so that it came from a place of real. Sophia as a Media Specialist took a lot of time and focus on perfecting our production book along with the movie editing. The performance was not the best one. Mrs. Thomas was right in that we could have probably pondered stronger conflict. One thing that I must say was that I just was not in the moment, I was thinking too much and the lines were just not flowing from my heart. 

What I would have changed would definitely be able to have students in the class watch and correct my scene fully rehearsed from beginning. Asking them how to improve it would have helped. What hurt us in the long run was the lack of music in our scene.All in all it was a learning experience and you can only be built stronger and learn from mistakes in life.  

Troy- The great Achilies

I recently watched the movie Troy and was moved. The was movie spoke of honour and valor. My favourite character was by far the character of Achilles played by  Brad Pit. Achilles  was one of, if not the best warrior's. What was interesting was that he fought for himself, he did not fight for any foolish king.  He understood that Kings would just use soldiers as little ponds for their battles and the kings would go down in history. The reason that Achilles fought against Troy was because the battle of Troy was to go down in history and he wanted to be known as the best warrior who ever lived. 

What was amazing was that because he knew how fickle the kings were. The real battle that Achilles had was with the King of the Spartans. In the beginning scenes you notice the Spartan Kings hatred towards Achilles because he could not be controlled or manipulated. Achilles hated the thought of possibly being just another servant dieing because a Foolish King decided he wanted more and more power. A king standing in complete ignorance to the fact that soldiers have families and many children were left father less.

 Achilles was not so  proud to be fighting and killing, like any other person had emotions. there was one moment were he cries and the audience is open to his heart. He never stop killing because he felt that this was what he was born to do just because he was excellent at it. The cousin of Achilles died out of arrogance pretending to lead the army into battle and blindly fighting Hector of Troy. This vexed Achilles and caused a great anger to arise in him. Hector was called to battle Achilles and killed, even though both lead soldiers were against the war.

Bottom line that I got from this movie is know what you are fighting for and who you are fighting for. There are to many people that do not know what drives them in life. So many will work hard for people that don't care about you. Working for a boss that is caring is so much more rewarding. When becoming a leader i believe that one must of served first so the leader understands how to direct and not just blindly sating commands.

The Evolution of a Musician

Music is every where. I feel it in my heart. When I walk around the halls I hear broken sentences of the many lives I want to change. I feel compelled to accomplished my destiny. Through music I will be able to speak little words but allow my audiences to hear my cry through the chords that I play for the true king of glory. The true King of love is waiting for his people to realise that all they need is him. Music has this way of transforming minds and hearts. When in tragedy people allow the cry of there hearts to bring them through. Music is evolving my character I am becoming more focused on my goals and tasks. 

When I hear music it's like I feel this new energy building in me. What is lacking in music these days is true soul. I feel that the evolution of a true musician is found in the songs that he writes. A Musician that just babbles none sense in my opinion is not using their gifts to their fullest potential. Every word spoken by the fruit of the lip needs to be angled for a positive meaning or purpose. Music brings you into a new dimention where the color of your skin no longer matters. The music tha tis food for the soul will calm the rageing storm in your mind and bring you to a peace that surpasses all understanding. Music lives in me and I will make it my dutie to be the most humble, loyale, rightous and just stand up for a new standered. A bold standered.       

Being a child

What is so amazing about being a child is understanding how much your parents love you. I am now 17 years old going on 18 it is intresting thinking about what I've been through to get to this point of my life. As the eldest child I notice the growth not only in myself, but in my father particularly. My father has been there for me my entire life. I have seen him become a better man. The growth of my father has been so emense that it cuased a shift in my thinking towards life. I heed the words of my father because they are wise. My father can say what ever he would like to me and he would never break our bond. I will always be his first born son. Being his son, Deroy's son is a rollercoaster ride of mulitple emotions trials and tribulations mixed up into this thing we call life.

Time is of the Essence

There are so many things that we do as young people these days that are just distracting to reaching our destiny. How many hours do we spend on the television when we could be using that time to write a series of our own. What is funny is that a lot of what is televised are not as complex as I once thought they were. As a future director, writer, musician and just all around artist I am thrilled studying and absorbing everything that happens in a movies. Hence I try my best to use my time effectivly.

What I invest my time in I expect a return. You will probably see me on the computer networking.  What I find frustating is the amount of time that is wasted in being on the computer talking to your friends. Time managment is key to any eveloping teen age person. Living life with no form of structure is  unhealthy becuase you don't have a disiplined drive that alows you to achieve goals in your life. Every day is a gift to you. Every moment that you have, every breath should be valued. The life clock is ticking fast so you better choose to get focussed or you will have regrets in your future.

Love urge

Do you really love me?

When you touch me and my body goes up five degrees

With your words your killing me softly

But by kill I mean you create this urge

This will to remain still and for fill your needs from a distance

You see this is why I’ve never had true loves first kiss

Because love is a dedication

It grows like a wild fire and needs to spread to the nations

Why it is that being married is frowned upon,

Why is it that I am only sexy if my name is Trey Songs?

Why is it that you hear my lyrics and just forget what they truly mean?

Is it because I’m not on the main stream?

I want to be a light like a solar beam

I want to know how to love a woman in my teens

So I don’t enter a relationship wreck,

I’m your typical Shrek minus Fiona,

Some may call me a metaphorical hunch back

But the truth is I’ve made myself a loner

Until I have reached that age where you respect what I have to say,

I will shut my music and play without charge

I’m like an organ downer,

So I play my sweet organ and repeat my vision in my head

I stand firm on the gospel remembering what my Jesus said.

God is Love and I am in love with God.

And so I will fight to be a Gentle man until I am dead.

True fatherhood

Father is vital to the growth of our society. What I will be speaking on is one of the most influencial people in my life, my father Deroy Matthews.

 My dad is brilliant. What is so amazing about my dad is that he has this ability to tap into the holy spirit within him helping him with the decisions that he makes. These days the connection that I have with my dad is on another level because we just have this bond. When you have a man that you know submits his mind to the works of the holy spirit even if bills are not being payed and problems are arising every where that you turn and yet still he can give glroy to God you just feel safe. What is nice about being my father's first son is that I can sit down and watch my father go through the growth process of being a man and loving his wife. Coinsidently, my life is modeled after a man that is an actor. I see my father every day, he lives in me and I

My father's desire to share the Love of God to his children is so spiritually encouraging. They key of following Christ is have a personal relationship with him. This is what continues to change my life. In my fathers growing process I am pleased to say that I am growing with him. I know that there are times that my father has to make some serious dissisions for his family which is his life. What is serious about being a man is knowing that you are the head of the home.

Year Vision

As a visionary it is inprotant that I cast a personal vision for my year. My vision for this year is to reserect past dreams and ambitions and apply some goals. To beleive that something miraclulous is bound to happen wihtout adding any effort is pure vanity. Dreamers are only successfull if they put work behind there visions. Ever stroy made or film produced started as a dream or thought and eveloved into a reality. What is hard is being the one that sees the dream and know one else sees it from your lense so people call you crazy. Martin Luther King jr was killed before he could see his dream come to pass.

There is no doubt that Mr. Martin would be proud to see our class room and how initegrated we are. My pastro spoke into his congregants saying that God children are being invested into. Where there are investments the ownere expects a return. Being blessed with the talents that I believe that I have I feel that I can and will acomplish many if not all of my dreams before I die. My dreams are all rooted in who I believe in, Jesus Christ. PEople may try and tample on the seeds that I invest into the soil, but God is able. This year I feel that I can not think about all the rational problems in life, but live according to my faith in God. I live by faith and not by site end of story.

The following is a list of things that I want to focus on this year:

• My play
• My book
• My Musi         

Is sleep a waste?

I am really on this new debate on wether or not sleep is all that it is cracked up to be. How important is it to dream while you bassically waste time that you could be working. I personally am a night hawk, I have the capabilty of staying awake and doing what I need to do. Why limit myslef to sleeping when I know that for every breathe that I waste another baby is loses his life. What I think I need to find is a confortable ballance between sleep work and leisure. This allows any potenial stress to be relieved from my thoughts. Looking at sleep from an optmistic angel, the satisaction of sleeping after a long days work is like heaven on earth. One can function a lot better with sleep. When you allow your body to get the prpoer rest your able to live life lest stressed out. The only problem with sleep in a sense is when you over due it. A person who is not concious of balance will be very frustrated.  What I am beggining to realise about myself is that when there is something on your mind that you meditate on to much it can potentially drive you into unatrural sleeping habits. looking at all the greats I do beleive that they had a few sleepless nights pondering their very thoughts and dreams of how to make a positive difference with their lives. To conlcude, sleep is positive because it gives your body a peace and in my oponion allows you to performe to the best of your abilities.     

Emotion control

As an actor it is fun to tap into a number of different characters. What is dangerous about being an actor that it is sometimes hard to seperate yourself from the character. Johnny depp played Jack sparrow in the Pritates of the carribean and was so into it. Mr. Debt is an excellent actor but got so attached to the charcter that people had to just get used to him talking like Jack Sparrow. Another example of a role taking over a persons mind is the joker.

The fact that we have to get in the moment is rough becuase if you are a good actor you will adopt the very characteristics that may counter your thought pattern. What is interesting is that the more you are stuck to the character the greater chance that you have of loseing your personality. This is why in my opinion actors believe that they need to party and they need to get lose becuase they play som much roles that are stressful to the mind there emotions are out of whack. I am just glad that I have a strong foundation to fall back on, I know that in the future i will be playing roles that may be very controvercial to people in and out of my faith.